Stressed!

Well, mom got out of the hospital two weeks ago tomorrow.  She fell and fractured her pelvis and is now in rehab in American Fork.  She is slowly making progress, but progress is progress.  I hope she starts feeling better soon.  I do not know how I am going to do it, but soon she will be living with me and my family and I will be taking care of her.  I am really scared.  I am hopeful it will be a good thing for her and for my family to learn to serve and care for someone besides themselves.  I think it will require a LOT of prayer and a lot of PATIENCE!  (Which I need to pray for.  I sure don't know how I am going to do this.)

I love my mom and am thankful for all that she has done for me.  It is my turn to love her back!  :)  

Robbie is still having seizures.  I don't know why and neither does the doctor.  So, I guess we just take it a day at a time and a seizure at a time and keep plugging away at life.  This IS our life.  Some things "suck", this being one of them, but what do you do?  Press forward!

We may have sold our house.  We are under contract and have inspection tomorrow.  If all goes well, we will be renters, come November 3rd.  As part of the contract, we will be able to rent the house back from the buyers until just after the first week of June.  (Or, we can leave sooner if we so choose.)  That way, we don't have to disrupt the kids' school schedule and have plenty of time to figure out where we want to be.  

 Today, they showed up to see the house.  I told the Realtor "no", but they still came.  I was really ticked off, so much so that I had to leave the house.  I was trying to tell the Realtor that they could wait until tomorrow.  But, apparently, I need to clean out my ears or need to take a communication skills class.  (Perhaps that would not be a bad idea anyway!)  I did not tell the Realtor they could come.  I told him that I was busy and didn't feel like I wanted to rearrange my schedule just to accommodate them.  I understand their excitement, however. 

Zachary has not yet received his mission call.  Due to some mis-communication issues, he will have his interview this Sunday with the Stake President and then if all goes well, he should get his call in the mail within just a couple weeks.  I am so excited for him!  It will be very interesting to see where he goes.  I cannot really explain it, but I think he will go foreign.  Like:  Taiwan, Cambodia...some place like that.  My Aunt Dianne thinks he will go Asian too.  Like Korea even.  So, we shall see.  It is just a few short weeks away until we know.  I will post it here for those that are following.  

So with mom's health issues, Rob's health issues, Jacob's health issues, Doug's health issues, and mine, which I cannot discuss on here yet, and getting the house ready to sell and keeping it ready to sell and now selling it,  I am overwhelmed.  Not that any of this is  terribly life altering or earth shattering, it IS stressful none-the-less.  But, I do acknowledge the hand of God in my life and know that I received strength and help to endure these trials.  

One more thing...I cannot seem to understand certain people in my life.  I consider myself to be generally an easy person to get along with.  But what I cannot seem to understand is that there seems to be something "wrong" with me.  I don't have a lot of friends.   I never really have.  I wish I understood why.  What is it that I do?  What is it that I am not?  What is it that is so annoying about me that people do not want to associate with me? And, My kids? And, My family?  One cannot change what they do not know needs to be changed or helped.  Good thing I don't have many followers on here, I guess.  They'd probably be the ones to be offended.  I have offended a few people recently.  One in particular.  I did not intend to!  But boy is she pissed at me!!!  Oh well!  Soon I will be gone like a ship in the night.  I don't think I will be missed here in Utah.  What's to be missed?  Sometimes I wish I could go to a place where no one ever knew a thing about me and just thought I was the neatest person on earth!  One can dream...I don't even feel like that with my hubby any more.  I used to feel like I was the "apple of his eye"  Now, I feel like nothing more than a pain in his backside, his bunk-mate, housekeeper, cook, and childcare giver.    I wish I was better.  I guess I better get it figured out and get to work!  Time for the "pity party" to be over.  I just needed to vent, I suppose.  

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